In this study, I try to present the possible childhood events behind the traumas and
life-changing events detected in adulthood, as well as their causes, using domestic
and international theoretical findings. As the use of the concept of trauma experience
has been complemented with the concept of Rüsen retraumatization, it can be established
that the individual who has suffered trauma is constantly forced to deal with what
happened to them, the painful experience appears repeatedly in their thoughts, dreams,
fantasy, and flashbacks (Caruth, 1996: 92). In my analysis, I present acting outs
and flashbacks by showing an examination of a renowned Hungarian poet’s biographical
life events in parallel with a comparative investigation. During this process, I compare
biographical events discussing traumatic life events with the poet's poems. According
to the professional findings of the national theoretician, these traumas rarely go
away without accompanying events, because in most cases they accompany the individual
throughout their life. I would like to prove Gábor Gyáni, Ferenc Erős and Freud's
concept of remembering traumatic experiences and the concept of repression. (Gyáni,
2006:6) According to my own experience from my practice, compulsions to repeat are
common forms of expression in the case of persons who have experienced trauma, the
presentation of both flashbacks and acting outs is therefore justified. During my
research, I would like to present this phenomenon from both a theoretical and a practical
point of view.
